Can I say wasted? Homecoming was just yesterday, and I must say, it was the bomb! Kind of …. I felt like such a whore and I still do. Like no joke, the dancing was basically grinding…. That basically contradicts my innocent self, haha. But foreals, I feel so unclean since Homecoming. To be honest though, I thought I would have a terrible time there, but I didn’t! It was fun, besides the whore part of me.
Haha! I had my groove on, yo. No joke! I got to meet some people, dance around with some friends, y’know, had fun. Wish the DJ played some korean songs though, I would’ve been a dancing freak! Afterwards, my legs & thighs became aching. I should have worn flats than my boots.
I guess I decided to go to Homecoming because it was a Saturday night where all my friends were gonna go to Homecoming and I felt like I needed a break. Like, this entire week and October have not been going my way, at all. I feel so freaking anal about it. I expect too much from life. With all that disappointment and frustration in me, I needed to dance it all away…. I know I should not be the one complaining. Everyone has problems and stress, but I gotta find some way to let it all out, right? I have enough trouble in AP Bio, my english teacher, all of my classes! Sophomore year is gonna be hectic forsure.
On top of that, I have some personal issues going on with myself. It’s no doubt that I’ve changed this year. Over summer I had major self-examination. I’ve grown to be anal, focused, spoiled, and mean. Those aren’t exactly the “best” qualities. But if it helps me to get to where I want to be, I’m content with it. Sorry. I feel that I don’t really have much of a social life as much. Ignoring Homecoming, I’m pretty much lame. I practically spend my Saturday nights sitting in my room, reading the AP Bio book. How great is that?
Besides schoolwork, my “love life” has been going swell lately. My oppa has now left to New York, has a girlfriend, and my online friend sometimes rubs it in my face that he’s there in the East Coast…. She doesn’t really understand that whenever she brings up that subject, I get real jealous. I really feel uncomfortable around her now. Our friendship became distant after a few number of years, ever since this one huge drama blasted out of nowhere. On the plus side, I’m getting the hang of it. I’m not as easily sensitive whenever someone brings up the subject of my oppa.
Off to homework now.