So… the second day of finals was on the fourth… 3 days ago… yeah. It actually went pretty well for the most part. Before the second of Finals came, I had my AP Biology and English final, right? Which were also the days where I had no sleep, literally. On top of that I had a basketball game against Birmingham and I couldn’t go home until 6:00pm. I was seriously poop, like, no joke. Once I got hope, I grabbed a bite and began my Finals studying, once again. But what sucked was that once I started started studying, I was immediately knocked out and when to a deep sleep. And when I woke up, it was the next day -0-
I freaked out and jumped out of bed, got ready for school and was studying in the car on my way to school! Sucks, right? I really thought I was screwed. But once the test appeared in my eyes, I had it. I was thinking in my head, “I GOT THIS!” HAHAHA. I have high hopes that I aced it my World History test, hehe(: Afterwards, I had my math final. I think I did pretty alright in it. There were some problems that I didn’t get, but not too many. I finished the ones that I could do and I hope I pass the class. I really wanted a B in my Algebra 2 class, sighhh.
I guess you can consider that as my last day of Finals. Once school was out, I jumped for joy! I felt like the most free-est and happiest person alive! I was done with all my tests. Disappointment was climbed over and I aced my other subjects. The rest of the week was smooth sailing.~~~
TEST TEST TEST
That’s what my mind has been sucking itself in with lately. Today was the first day of Finals, and to be honest, not a great start. I took my AP Biology and English Final today. I hate to say this, but it looks like I’m not gonna pass AP Biology or get that A in my English Class. I literally spent all day yesterday (okay, not really; just 4PM – 7AM) studying my ass off for those classes, but I mainly focused on AP Biology. In the end, it was just a huge waste of trying. I failed the exam and won’t continue my studies. Although, I still want to.
I feel as if my emotions and thoughts to got me to lose my focus and efforts in AP Biology. Right now, my family is in a huge financial crisis and it worries me to the bone about it. I constantly have to think, “Am I using too much electricy?”, “I shouldn’t eat this, it’ll make my mom buy more groceries.”, “I can’t shower today, I’ll waste too much water.”, anything like that. It has also been affecting my parent’s relationship with one another. Everyday, in my household, I would hear non-stop bickering about money, gas, etc.
My brother has also been taking part of my AP Biology failure as well. All my life, I have been living in the shadows of my older brother, Edward. Not once have I had self recognition as being myself. It’s either I’m “Edward’s younger sister” or the “dumb sibling.” Edward himself has always put my down about every aspect of myself, that I basically have no self-respect or any confidence in myself. He took AP Biology as a sophomore too, and passed the class with a B & recieved a 5 on the AP Exam. Can you believe it? I always stress about what he thinks in me, hoping that one day, he doesn’t see me as the “stupid” one. But now this situation is even worse when I know that he’ll use my grade in AP Biology as another reason for him to think I’m hopeless.
With my head caught up too much in my AP Biology final, I didn’t focus too much on my English final. Sad, right? I got 400 points out of 800 points. Greaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaat. -0- What’s even worse was that during the final, someone’s (Ali) phone vibrated and my English teacher heard it. When she asked whose phone was that, nobody admitted, which kept going on for about hmmm, about 2 hours! My teacher wanted to find out so badly that she even offered $50 and threatened to not give us extra credit points from our final. In the end, nobody said anything….
Tomorrow is my final for World History and Algebra 2